Just added this private post function.

What I want to do here is to share my private thoughts with you, my sheep. Something that troubles me alot is my sexual desire. Rest assured, you are the only one ever in my heart and mind, you along I desire; but I must admit that I really want to get intimate with you. I love you, and I would never exploit you for sex pleasure; nor do I want you to have such an impression. But the fact remains that I constantly feel very uncomfortable, both mentally and physically. As I told you before, I do not masturbate, because I believe this is selfish and disrepects you.

Writing to you ease my uncomfortableness. In the end, I need you–your understanding and your care. I love you.